Saturday, February 28, 2015

Half of a Whole

Former Tent City resident Marek Mroczek
"My life is finito."

Even just reading those words stung, a ripple of sorrow that spread hard and fast.

Igor and Marek been virtually inseparable, so much so that was rare to see one without the other. They were next-tent neighbors in Tent City and roommates at the motel where they were placed after Tent City was shut down. There, Marek endured a bedbug infestation and frozen pipes in addition to poor health. Despite the sub-par conditions, in the wake of the social isolation imposed on them by Tent City's closure, it was a comfort to know Igor and Marek at least had each other.

But Marek succumbed to heart failure yesterday, and those words - "My life is finito" - were Igor's response.
Dawn Dixon, outside her former home in Lakewood's Tent City

And Marek's passing called to mind another recent loss: that of Dawn Dixon.

Both had lived in Tent City and were relocated away from their home and community by Lakewood Township. Both health problems that might not have taken their lives had their circumstances been different.

And for the respective people with whom they shared the best of their lives and memories - namely Dawn's partner John and Marek's soul-brother Igor - the mere thought of life without them seems too painful to bear.

Life as they once knew it, by their friend's side, is forever changed. And to them, it feels like it's over. Finito.

The death of someone they loved dearly isn't the only major loss they've suffered this past year.

I remember whenever there was a death in Tent City, people rallied around one another, hugged one another, cried with one another. Minister Steve would give a sermon in honor of the deceased, offering words of hope and comfort. There were tasks to keep them occupied when they might otherwise fall into the trap of isolation and despair.

The residents of Tent City were not just individuals, couples, or partnerships: they were a community that was indeed greater than the sum of its parts. But that community was broken apart because the powers that be did not see its inhabitants as neighbors. They saw only a ramshackle "eyesore" of makeshift tents and shanties. They saw arbitrary faces that reflected various degrees of hardship, but not actual people worthy of dignity.

Those in power paid little regard to the very human needs of community, purpose, and belonging. In their haste to rid their own community of the homeless, they applied little more than a soiled bandage to a gaping wound.

And now, for some of those people, that wound has grown, while their inner circle has been exponentially diminished. How to begin again, how to thrive, when it feels as if someone has taken a hammer to your sense of hope time and again.

Pray, friends, for those who are living with such profound loss, that perhaps we can in some small way help them feel less alone.

Rest in peace, Marek and Dawn. You matter. And you are missed.

Thursday, February 26, 2015

The Soul of the Moment

In late January, my mother called to inform me that she'd seen an ad for the Asbury Park Music in Film Festival, and that they were accepting submissions for music videos. She suggested that I enter my video for a song I'd written back in June, just around the time of Tent City's demolition.

Although I'm quite proud of the song itself, I considered the video more of an impromptu compilation than anything else. I put together a collection of stills and clips to go with the song so people would have a visual without the painstaking process of watching me sit at my keyboard and cry - which, by the way, I actually did at around three and a half minutes in.

This past Sunday, my friend Jack Ballo, director of Destiny's Bridge, contacted me to let me know that my submission was not only accepted, but would be included with the Destiny's Bridge screening as part of the "Tent City Block." I was also invited to perform an additional song at the event alongside other musician-activists. Soon after I posted the good news on Facebook, Tom Mongelli of Townsquare Media reached out and asked if he could interview me about the song and what inspired it.

In October 2013, I took a drive down an unpaved road in Lakewood, found myself remarkably inspired on many levels, and proceeded to share that experience through blogs, videos, and song.

It wasn't only about the opportunity to translate my own observations into art. Often I would visit Tent City and sing songs with residents who themselves were musicians, who would accompany me on background vocals, piano, guitar, or harmonica. Music became our common ground, a powerful reminder of our shared humanity.

And what's more, I'm confident that the art inspired by Tent City will in turn inspire others to use their own gifts, artistic or otherwise, for the greater good.

It is said that the mere act of creating is what gives life itself meaning, but it is a monumental blessing when your art itself takes on meaning and purpose beyond merely creating for its own sake.

And when art is paired with purpose, it does more than inspire. It can be a powerful catalyst for change.

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For those interested in attending the "Tent City Block" on Saturday, April 11 at the Asbury Park Music and Film Festival, here are the details:

Destiny's Bridge
with Director and Tent City founder Minister Steve Brigham Q&A
Feature Film
Directed by Jack Ballo
Time: 1:00-2:30

The Voice: A Song For Tent City
with Performance by Lisa Ferrara and other friends of Tent City
Music Video
Directed by Lisa Ferrara
Time: 2:30-3:00pm

Location: Salt Studios (658 Cookman Ave. Suite 5, 732-775-9300)